Monday, 22 May 2017

A thousand questions

Am I depressed? Is this what bi-polar is? Is my contraception making me feel like this? Do I just need a good nights sleep? Or some new clothes? Maybe a pamper session? Am I not having enough sex? is it because I'm skint? Is it because I don't have a house of my own? Or a ring on my finger? Would having a baby make me feel better? Do I subconsciously know he's not right for me? Do I just need some comforting words? Just a cuddle and a kiss and a 'everything will be OK'? To know I'm not on my own.

So many questions filling my head, wondering why I feel so unhappy.

B
xx

Sunday, 21 May 2017

Hello

Five years later and here I am again. The last time I posted I was writing about fashion and beauty because that was something I'd just started to enjoy. I wanted to explore my style and evolve this new found passion I had, as many girls do in their early twenties. Now I'm sitting here with a pretty decent sense of what type of clothes I like to wear but looking at the world with so much inner conflict.

I used to keep a diary of 'moans' which was basically inserts of feelings I had about my then boyfriend. I have a different boyfriend now who I've been with for over a year and he seems to play a big part in this inner conflict I am carrying around, amongst many other things. I remembered I used to really like writing my thinkings and feelings down in that little book, and I would like to do something like that again. Only this time I'd like to write down all the great and beautiful things in my life as well so I don't fall into that awful trap of negativity. Hello Blogger.

So if you have wondered across to this blog and may be interested in this twenty-something year olds wonderings, expect all kinds of things. But in essence, a lifestyle blog about searching for inner happiness from a girl who is, basically, totally confused.

B
xx